The Temporary Feeling (Liberal Hysteria)


You’re reading a blog. By the fact alone it’s safe to assume you don’t live under a rock. You know the US presidential election is over and done with and that Donald J. Trump is the president-elect. Cue the outrage from America’s Left who thought they were going to ride the golden unicorn straight back into the White House. Now I don’t know for sure why their knickers are in such a twist, but I have an idea.

“He who is not a républicain at twenty compels one to doubt the generosity of his heart; but he who, after thirty, persists, compels one to doubt the soundness of his mind.”

A rare version of the quote in that it implies a lack of heart in not being a republican in your twenties. In more common versions the rule goes if you aren’t a liberal in your 20’s you have no heart, if you aren’t a conservative by your 30’s you have no brain. Is that terrible to say? The quote has been attributed to so many people that I am not listing any of them. Pertaining, you can give or take a few years on those age guidelines. So why are liberals so dang scared and upset to the point of tears and needing safe spaces filled with marshmallow fluff and chocolate? Even ones my own age and older!?? (36) They haven’t suffered enough political losses in their life up to this point. And they certainly haven’t had social media to supply their emotions with steroids so they can rage like overgrown body building children. Let’s look at someone my age. 8 years of Obama. That brings me back to 28. (I’ve suffered through two elections, recently) 4 years before that I was 24. At 24 years of age, I experienced Bush being re-elected. He was an incumbent, you have to kind of expect him to win. On the other side, you kind of expect to lose, or at least aren’t surprised when you lose to the incumbent, controversy aside. Note: at 24 I did not pay attention to politics nearly as much as I do now, but even then I paid attention more than most my age.  Another note: Facebook was launched in 2004. I was 24. 4 years before that in 2000 would be the last time Democrats were gunning for a sure fire win and lost. (Al Gore, the poor boy) But there was no Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter (2006) to fuel an emotional meltdown. AND I was 20 and yet to register as a republican. (Conservative Party Of New York now). That was ages ago, there were no safe spaces. The towers went down on 9/11, the smoke was within eyeshot, and we were quickly back to class and not coddled into a nap-time.

Seeing adults act like children makes adults act like children and there is no better place for that than Facebook. Oh, you are hurt? I’m hurt. You’re crying? So am I. My empathy will not be outdone. It’s a snowball effect. Children and pets get away with murder now because instead of being disciplined for fucking shit up, they are made to go viral on the internet. “This is terrible, but people will like it” Living in NY tears me in two. The land of the left, home of the liberal. Such a kick-ass town but the urban areas are blue to the gills.What I see on social media is vociferous outrage and divisive rhetoric being spewed from liberals to the point that makes me wonder how they are the party of peace, understanding, and acceptance. That’s a farce. All this chatter is galvanizing the GOP. Liberals are angering them into unity. It’s now an emboldened base that has chosen to move forward as a united party despite disagreement, a measured move to quell the multipronged attacks levied by the left. Name-calling, endless insults, holier than thou comments, the pervasiveness of which is so much that it can’t be defended. Is it the bleeding heart talking? Are their emotions so vast that when flared up they can not control themselves? I’ve been a republican/conservative for 15 years and only this year have I been called a racist, a xenophobe, a misogynist, and a homophobe. For people with such big hearts liberals sure are pessimistic. They will not give you half of the chance every person deserves, counting out the entire upcoming administration before it even begins its reign. I gave Obama a few years before I knew for sure that he was taking this country in a direction I didn’t believe in. Never had confidence in him but I at least prayed he would unite people and make progress. I also didn’t bash him in public, he was/is the president of our country, and in my opinion, one of the most purposely divisive characters to ever enter the White House.

So many of my friends are liberal. Thinking with their hearts and politics aside, most of them are good people. I didn’t excoriate them for electing a socialist, but they certainly are not returning the favor of keeping the yammer quiet. But they won’t keep it up. One thing I know about most liberals, they don’t really like or pay attention to politics. Hard news is just too hard for them. I’ve given everyone a pass, I’ve tried to keep friendships intact and I will continue to do so until January. Then, all bets are off. I’ll step up my rhetoric and we can all really have fun. I will stop taking those sensitive liberal feelings into consideration and will move forward as I have in the past. And if Trump doesn’t hold up his end, he will be the first to be criticized as well. Social media is supposed to be fun, like an adult playground… but it’s turned into a war zone. You know us conservatives, we don’t shy away from war. I understand tempers are still hot, but it’s time to get on with things. Democrats have 2018 elections to be thinking about and should be trying to court Jill Stein to the party. They’ve lost focus and the sooner they regain it, the better.



Life is Loud.


I’ve been thinking a lot about life lately. It was never all roses but there were a few…and now those have started to go bad. The road has been bumpy for me as of late and only now am I regaining my feet. Ever since my mom passed away last year I haven’t been able to do much right. Nothing is the same, nothing will ever be the same. I lost my father 17 years ago but when he went, I still had mom. Now I am an orphan at 36. There were no siblings. So I have an entirely new life right now. It’s not the same in any way. I am different. This is not a new chapter, the book ended. This is a new book. Though this new book started out like an ember in hell, I’ve learned that I am a much stronger reader than I thought. I don’t really have a point here. There is no great revelation… at least not yet. I’m lonely and sad most days, but for me it’s normal. Normal is good. You can get used to normal very quickly. I have a different look in my eyes… I think more than I ever have. I have a thousand yard stare sometimes that I am trying to get rid of, you know the one. A million things going on around you but you are focused on that point in the far distance. I’m still listening, but I stare off. Though I am alone and though I am sad, I am not depressed. That is key to my survival. Life is a series of guaranteed losses, the gains are up in the air. I  want nothing more than to gain a few things in this next book of life. Perhaps a family. Does anyone know where I can find one? Well I am going to make an effort to start writing again. I am thinking much clearer these days. I think I am ready.



Songs of My Year


2016 was a lot of things. Depending on who you are it was a very good year, full of happiness and growth. Alternatively… it may very well have been a terrible year marred by unwelcome imbalance and impending doom. Oh and anywhere in between, of course. Regardless of where you fall on the scale, I do believe we can all agree on one thing: It was a good year for music. I’ve compiled a list of the 20 songs released in 2016 that I feel are a good example of the vastness and diversity of the great music being produced in this day and age. My favorite songs of the year? Yes, my favorite. But I bet there is something here for you no matter what kind of music you like. This is in no particular order and the only requirement is that the single or album it was part of was released this year. I’ll limit myself to a sentence or two about each song.

1.  1000 Times by Hamilton Leithauser & Rostam

Album: I Had A Dream That You Were Mine

Produced by Rostam Batmanglij

I cheated, what can I say, this is my actual favorite song of the year. Hence the #1 spot. A perfect mix of a heart warming love tale buckled to the end of Leithauser’s raspy howls.

2. A Million Reasons by Lady Gaga

Album: Joanne

Producers: Mark Ronson, Stefani Germanotta, BloodPop

She’s outdone herself with the album Joanne and this song stands out. Showing growth in songwriting and appealing to an older audience.

3. Spit Out The Bone by Metallica

Album: Hardwired… to Self-Destruct Disc 2

Producer: Greg Fidelman

This is just what the doctor ordered. The pacey drums and blistering riffs hint that Metallica is at the top of their game.

4. PillowTalk by Zayn

Album: Mind Of Mine

Producer: Levi Lennox

This song debuted at #1 virtually EVERYWHERE in the world, breaking records while he was at it. Fucking in, fighting on.

5. Hearts/Wires by Deftones

Album: Gore

Producer: Matt Hyde

These guys are my favorite band and this album was a return to form in my eyes. This song brings your focus from melodic trance to dual roarings: Guitars and Chino.

6. The Numbers by Radiohead

Album: A Moon Shaped Pool

Producer: Nigel Godrich

Not much has to be said about who I think is the best band in the world. Radiohead numbs everything and this song has a nineties Radiohead feel to it. Elusive bastards.

7. We The People by A Tribe Called Quest

Album: We got it from Here… Thank You 4 Your service

Producer: QTip

I didn’t like this song from jump street… but it grew on me, you can’t argue with this beat.

8. New Song by Warpaint

Album: Heads Up

Producer: Jacob Bercovici

All girl rock alt-rock band makes a pop song. And they are gorgeous. Try to sit still to this one.

9. Me Too by Meghan Trainor

Album: Thank You

Producer: Ricky Reed

Only two possible questions: Do I include this song? Or How can I not include this song? Super catchy and…super catchy.

10. Faithfully by Skylar Spence

Album: Single

Producer: Ryan DeRobertis

Only song to be released in 2016 by for this guy (formerly Saint Pepsi). Do you know the sample? OK, it’s Aretha Franklin’s Wonderful

11. Loud(y) by Lewis Del Mar

Album: Lewis Del Mar

Producer: Max Harwood

Local heroes hailing from Rock Rock Rockaway Beach. How do I not know someone who knows them? Opening line on this song says it all “Can you please sit the fuck down”

12. Easier by Mansionair

Album: Easier

Producer: Mansionair

Three dudes from Sydney just making music to chill out to. Lyrics really hit home, does it get easier? Will I figure it out?

13. Perfect Illusion by Lady Gaga  (Second time on the list, remember that come Grammy time)

Album: Joanne

Producers: Mark Ronson, Stefani Germanotta, BloodPop, Kevin Parker

Perfect pop song. Queens of the Stoneage front-man taking on some guitar duties with super producer Mark Ronson. Tame Impala’s Kevin Parker on drums. The album also boasts Beck and Florence Welch of Florence and the Machine. Lady Gaga could have four songs on this list.

14. Gardenia by Iggy Pop feat. Josh Homme

Album: Post Pop Depression

Producer: Josh Homme

QOTSA frontman popping up AGAIN. This is a haunting melody that you should not miss. Iggy is an icon for sure.

15. Brazil by Declan McKenna (single released in 2015, EP in 2016. Got airplay in the USA only in 2016 so we’ll count it)

Album: Liar EP

Producer: Declan McKenna

17 years old. Can’t say enough about his still developing talent. This is a gem of a song.

16. Everything You’ve Come To Expect by The Last Shadow Puppets

Album: Everything You’ve Come To Expect

Producer: James Ford

Arctic Monkeys front-man Alex Turner is back at it again with Miles Kane, one of my favorite solo artists. Beautiful depth to this song, tongue twisting lyrics and did you see the dang video??

17. Everybody Dies by J. Cole

Album: Single

Producer: J. Cole

Watch out, J. Cole is taking names. A modern dis track that has a better beat than 98% of rap out there. Oh, you recognize that sample? Minnie Ripperton Inside My Love… you probably heard it on A Tribe Called Quest’s Lyrics To Go.

18. Magnificent (She Says) by Elbow

Album: Litte Fictions (2017)

Producer: Craig Potter

You’ll have to wait a bit for the album but this brilliant single will hold you over. Elbow have been around for 20 years so if you haven’t heard of them you need to rethink your music taste.

19. Blackstar by David Bowie

Album: Blackstar

Producer: Tony Visconti

Clocking in at 10 minutes, this song is a trip that opens up a can of whoop ass at the halfway mark. RIP

20.7 Years by Lukas Graham

Album: Blue Album (April 2016 USA release)

Producers: Future Animals

This song makes me wanna tear up. Not admitting if I actually do. But if a song makes you feel that much it’s a good one.

Listen, you are probably complaining. I don’t care, It took over 4 hours to put this together because I kept listening to all this dang music. Pretty impossible to narrow things down so there are some songs missing for sure.  So who is missing? What song should not be on this list? That’s it for now. Keep the needle on the record.

I Heart Jamie Anderson

You can’t ask why. So don’t bother.



Every now and then a babe comes along and is like “hey you there, stop everything you are doing and pay to me all of your attentions”

Good one, Jamie Anderson. I’m all eyes.

Read some real stuff about it here:

Dealing With It. A Stream-Of-Consciousness Nothingness

Merry Christmas

On December 19th of 1999 my dad passed away, or my pop as I would call him. What can you do? It sends shivers down every holiday’s barrel. It can ruin you… but it can also make you persevere. What would you do? I avoided it for a decade. Thanksgiving is the event that sets my heart racing, it sends me panting, grasping for air. Christmas isn’t Christmas without you? That is not the case. It still exists. The spirit is still here and it is still kicking. Thank goodness. The holidays are tough aren’t they? They make you wax and wane. What if it’s marred with death? Almost unforgiving in nature and certainly relentless with reminders of a past that haunts you with lingering doubt. Will they ever be that good again? Will the Holidays ever make me smile again?  Will I ever wonder and wish and hope and dream… will I ever think that a miracle is around the corner? Yes. Help is right round the corner.  No one’s Christmas is perfect. Is this a sad thing? I seem to lose track of that notion. It can’t be perfect, can it? Of course not. That is what makes it so special. The imperfection, the flickering light. The new faces and new borns… they don’t know that this Christmas isn’t absolutely splendid. Well their naivety must make it so. The glimmer in their eyes, the sparkle in their smile… we can see that it is just the most wonderful time of the year and that it’s the most celebrating we can get in, in a two month span. There will always be a memory to smile about. Some things will never change. There is no reward in shying away from the jubilation at the end of the trepid season, we only torture ourselves. I am resigned to that fact. Each years adversity is overshadowed by a years worth of gained wisdom and peacefulness. It is getting easier. And all this time I thought it was getting harder. Merry Christmas. Happy New Year. 2014 shall be one for the books, there is not one person that can deny it.